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I love the Sleep button on my stereo. One might think that while laying in a nice warm cozy bed that they might be able to just hunker down and sleep for the night, catching up on all the beauty sleep they need to make it through til the next day. Well, not I.For the past hour I have been tossing and turning contemplating the meaning of my existence. No, I am not losing it but yes, I am wondering what I am doing. Why am I doing the things I am doing? Who are the people who meander into my life? Are they going to have a purpose? Are they using me for something or vice versa? Questions which may never be answered but are thought-provoking when considered. I am sure if Aaron was here, he would have something deep and Deepak Chopraish to tell me. Man I miss those. So I am doing a bunch of gigs for the Herald as you may know about. The blog which is updated whenever I get around to it, the car review which is going to be published in the Herald every Friday, potential pieces in Swerve Magazine, Neighbors, Life section, etc. Looks like I am going places. I am a writer for Fresh Tracks Music interviewing and reviewing bands- what the heck do I know about music?! I have this job at this place I enjoy which, by the way, just informed me that they like me enough to want to keep me on permanent and not just contract. But then that scares me. Being contract was a bitter sweet experience. I was hourly, did my own thing, really wasn't held accountable for too much there as I was kind of a disposable employee, and no benefits. Well this is all about to change after January 31. A real employee somewhere. Wow. Man, Joseph Arthur is a fantastic artist. With all this writing that I am getting involved in, it sparked the light in my head. I need an assistant. I would love to be able to have someone who would follow me around and be everywhere, well almost everywhere, that I am. When I have something to say which I think would be a good piece somewhere, that assistant would write it down so I don't lose the thought. I hate losing the good thoughts. I think I need to do something radical. Nothing like lose 50lbs or cut all my hair off or quit my job or anything, something else. Spontaneous trip somewhere. Quick. I thought my trip to Victoria/Vancouver at New Years was the ticket but it has left something of a bitter taste in my mouth which isn't being acquired very well. Whatever it is, it needs to happen soon. Maybe it will be as simple as the satisfaction I have within myself once I receive the Project Management certificate, leave the hotel on Wednesday after a successful project completion and close the book which I have been secretly interested in reading for quite sometime now. Whatever it is, you will be with me on the journey and will find out about it once I reach the destination. Nighty night. Posted by Bella at 1:47 AM# 0 Comments:
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